LOVE MELODY:

A tone lets feelings take its place.
In a space were our hearts start to race.

Drifting with waves as emotions pass.
Laying with a sheet, on leveled grass.

Take off with the beat, in a surprising way.
To introduce the fact that i like to play.

seen in the moon beam, taking up space.
finding use for a girdle,on time,in place.

Like skipping a stone, when skin to the bone.
An arch of the back, deserves a smack.

hearing the tone, of a loud moan.

On the top of a hill top, were the sky descends.
ower love is ever lasting because it never ends.

midnight love

Midnight falls, like a blanket, cooling the heat of our love
Midnight love, dark, unexpected
Our passion, consummed us, made us one, like the moon in the night sky
The full moon, a perfect circle, our love completing the cycle
The stars in the sky, shine like the hopes and dreams of our life together
Midnight skies, the full moon, the stars
I see us reflected in them
The darness that surrounds the night, yet the light from the moon that lights it
What we’ve had to overcome, what we have become
We became one, a full circle, the fairy tale dancing around, in the dreams of almost every little girl
All in the Midst of our midnight love

A day to mind

I'm hear today because I'm dying...

my heart have rusted from being out to long.
standing in the rain just to hide my tears.
I'm not going to see my brother again.....
shot on the spot.
mom s dead and my dads a crack......
...

Average with a fake smile. why do people stare at me dad? is it wrong to stare back?so how do i look dad? why don't you say something?

I cant wait to pray to mom about my grades tonight.

I PRAY:
mom i miss you so much. when are you coming home. I'm cracking mom. i don't know if i can keep it together. come back.........

Another added to my wish list.
I pray a prayer and never an answer... leaving me in a bundle of crumbles.

They look and people talk, like the screech of chock.

do i know if i matter, when you sit as i shatter. my brother dies and no one taught me how to live with it.
so it molds and leaves a mark on my heart.

As i dream, my days go black...

I'm drowning in a wave as you go with the shore line. looking up at the bottom when The pressures on me.were its to black to see. feeling like a spare.

I whisper at you.
what i care, if you wouldn't care, if i did care.

where is my father figure,mother and brother i pray as i make it through my day.

person in detail.

I know that person. The one that told you that you would never make it. The one that constantly tells you you're worthless. The one that holds you down, and picks at your scabs until you're bleeding again, inside and out. The one one that leaves you there til it starts to heal, then comes back and makes you bleed all over again. I know that person. The one that tortures you in you're dreams and guides you to the empty black hole. But I need you to let him go and find a way out. He'll hold on tight, he'll resist. But you have to. Let him go.

He will dig his claws into you, sweet talk you, and if all else fails, he'll threaten you. In fact, he's doing it right now. You want to ask for help, but think you wont get it because he's inside where no one can see him or hear him but you. He's inside your mind. What's it like in there.? It used to be colorful and full of love and hope. Now its dark and full of pain and despair. 

I know what he looks like and I know what he sounds like, at least to you. He's handsome and that is what attracts you to him. His voice is overpowering and demanding and that scares you. You should be scared. Those who play with fire are bound to get burned. HIs voice. It tricks you. Because sometimes it's sweet and pleading. It confuses you. BUt you know it's wrong and you need to let go. Get out. His hands. They hold you back. They are rough and calloused. He holds you back by your heart instead of your arm. It's because he knows what you like. You feel his sharp, dirty nails biting into your heart and you pray that he will let go, or at least loosen his grip. His eyes. Deep blue, turn red when he is angry. Like they are now. They are burning into you, sending the clear message that he will NOT let go and if you want to be free, you better be willing to fight with every breath in your body. You know you cant fight him. He's too strong. Or, Maybe, you're just too weak. Either way you stop fighting, and his strong, muscular arms encircle around you and drag you down until you are no more. 

Out of the Darkness

out of the darkness and into the light
your smile I embrace while your arms hold me tight
out of the secret and into the facts
the fact that you love me, the fact that without you I'm lost
out of the loneliness and into your arms
please dont let go, I beg of you, stay by my side
out of the secret and into the real
the reality that I'm yours, forever and always
over te limits and into the limitless
the limitless days I'll spend in your warmth
out of the darkness that filled my life
into the light that shines in your eyes
there I find confort, there I find strength
there I find the love that'll keep me alive
out of the darkness and into your arms
hold on tight lets go for a ride
out of the darkness and into your heart
there, forever I belong, forever I shall stay

undecided.confused.

dark corners, empty spaces, no happy places
no light, nothing to fill the void, happy places
[nonexistant]
cornered in, trapped inside, can't get out
[of my own mind]
burning up, crying out, take me out
[of my private hell]
hold me tight, let me go, get out
[of my wounded heart]
get away, please stay, don't walk out
[of my shattered life]
take me out, keep me in, save me from
[my disturbing thoughts]
don't let me show, but let me feel, wake me up from
[my confusing love]
you were here, i saw you, you were gone, i missed you
but you weren't gone because i missed you when you were here
my mind has one question, undecided, confused
[where'd you go?]

Going Nowhere

After all this time, I'm still here
After every drop of every tear
I'm stuck in a dark room
Awaiting change, facing doom

Growing tired of growing
Growing ill of not knowing
Change should be coming now
I don't know when, I don't know how

But I know things won't stay
the way they are, day by day
Maybe I can put everything behind me
Maybe I can walk away and be free

But it's not that simple, not that easy
Life is stormy and not that breezy
Rain will fall, winds will clash
Life's too short to get up and dash

The Not So Nice Bigger Picture

A flickering light
A leaky faucet
An unmade bed
A sink full of dishes

All these things that seemed to bother you before... does not seem to anymore

They're nothing compared to the outside world
The bigger picture is what you need to see

CRIME
HUNGER
WAR
POVERTY
All these things can never be compared to all those little things
Take a step back and realize you can:

Replace a flickering light

Fix a leaky faucet

Make an unmade bed

Wash a sink full of dishes