Why do you gaze upon my face to just look at another?
Written inside, anguished assist
Throws of pain blister my heart
You see me crying you ignore me
Destroying me demolishing all hopes and dreams
You see them non-memory me
You gaze slowly harsh against my face
You see him there before me
You know I dislike this uneven fight
What is this feeling of loneliness?
A caress of harmful fingers
Missiles in my skin
Burning tearing firing my insides
Stripping me of all dignities.
You see them non-memory me
You gaze slowly harsh against my face
You see him there before me
You know I dislike this uneven fight
And yet you still know me not
A bleeding misguiding stance
A tall shadow of those them
A mission you don’t want to acknowledge
I don’t like him like you and him like each
You see them non-memory me
You gaze slowly harsh against my face
You see him there before me
You know I dislike this uneven fight
Why do you gaze upon my face to just look at another?
Written inside, anguished assist
What is this feeling of loneliness?
A caress of harmful fingers
And yet you still know me not
A bleeding misguiding stance
You see them non-memory me
You gaze slowly harsh against my face
You see him there before me
You know I dislike this uneven fight
25 December 2008
23 November 2008
Changing Place
Lets change place today
You me scared
and I be dared
Daring to hit you
again and again.
Why don't you say don't
and I say no
but when you say stop
I'll just go.
You scream
I yell
letting the pressure
inside excel.
We fight
I beat
You cry at my feet.
I see you don't like
my domestic way
so I stop
Now I wait to see
if you'll start.
You me scared
and I be dared
Daring to hit you
again and again.
Why don't you say don't
and I say no
but when you say stop
I'll just go.
You scream
I yell
letting the pressure
inside excel.
We fight
I beat
You cry at my feet.
I see you don't like
my domestic way
so I stop
Now I wait to see
if you'll start.
19 November 2008
Silhouette of a Draining Heart
I
Colors pour from my eyes
The sky’s silent, empty tears
Cannot wash away the stains I’ve made
The darkening rainbow of blood splashed across the sky
Runs down the fading brick walls
Pools in the cracked dog dish
Dries into the crimson velvet of your room
A solitary plume is left floating in the ice-cold water
Resting motionless in the gushing rapids
Soak in the flowing colors
Return them to my fingertips
I need them
I
need
them
~
Colors pour into your eyes
Bleeding through the canvas
Filling the rifts of your mind
Oil.
Your blood flows like oil.
Black sludge in your veins.
Is it colorless
Or all colors melded together?
The whites of your eyes are gone
Flown to the sun to burn away all trace
The light is fading
The rainbow is dripping away
Filling in the hollowed night
The colors bleed
Colors always bleed
II
The colors of our eyes mix
Running down our faces
Our waltz splashes through the dense black of night
Your hand melts in mine
Go back to the surface, rip through the mud
Before the wrinkled satin dress tears
Into the sun’s fiery grasp we dance
Violet
~
Color
Color is nothing
Dark
Color is everything
The dark shatters
Violet
Violet shines through
The mirror shatters
Shards of violet
Pulsing in violet
Color is violet
Each pump of my heart resounds
A deafening violet
Vi-o-let
Violet is everything
~
The final chilled drop falls
Our dance sinks into the earth
Our eyes have faded away
A violet rainbow fills the sky
Scraping against the hallowed night
The colors bleed away
Colors always bleed away
Colors pour from my eyes
The sky’s silent, empty tears
Cannot wash away the stains I’ve made
The darkening rainbow of blood splashed across the sky
Runs down the fading brick walls
Pools in the cracked dog dish
Dries into the crimson velvet of your room
A solitary plume is left floating in the ice-cold water
Resting motionless in the gushing rapids
Soak in the flowing colors
Return them to my fingertips
I need them
I
need
them
~
Colors pour into your eyes
Bleeding through the canvas
Filling the rifts of your mind
Oil.
Your blood flows like oil.
Black sludge in your veins.
Is it colorless
Or all colors melded together?
The whites of your eyes are gone
Flown to the sun to burn away all trace
The light is fading
The rainbow is dripping away
Filling in the hollowed night
The colors bleed
Colors always bleed
II
The colors of our eyes mix
Running down our faces
Our waltz splashes through the dense black of night
Your hand melts in mine
Go back to the surface, rip through the mud
Before the wrinkled satin dress tears
Into the sun’s fiery grasp we dance
Violet
~
Color
Color is nothing
Dark
Color is everything
The dark shatters
Violet
Violet shines through
The mirror shatters
Shards of violet
Pulsing in violet
Color is violet
Each pump of my heart resounds
A deafening violet
Vi-o-let
Violet is everything
~
The final chilled drop falls
Our dance sinks into the earth
Our eyes have faded away
A violet rainbow fills the sky
Scraping against the hallowed night
The colors bleed away
Colors always bleed away
"Prison"
A casting, a shell
my secrets are veiled.
Clamp down, shut tight
closed from your sight.
A mystery to you
a fright to me.
A laugh to those
who are not here.
A cell, a box, some metal tools
claustrophobic air, closed in space
my mind under complete rule.
My life at your hands,
Those hands of fools too.
Clear day, misty too
still stuck viewing
from inside this
closed school.
my secrets are veiled.
Clamp down, shut tight
closed from your sight.
A mystery to you
a fright to me.
A laugh to those
who are not here.
A cell, a box, some metal tools
claustrophobic air, closed in space
my mind under complete rule.
My life at your hands,
Those hands of fools too.
Clear day, misty too
still stuck viewing
from inside this
closed school.
Hollow's Eve
The moon glowed brightly as their bodies entwined. It silhouetted them making the sweat on their bodies glisten. The dance sped up as the tempo of the drums quicken. The dancers’ backs bend forward as they turned. Arms stretched to sky in a silent pray and bodies turn sharply left from right. The drums stopped only for a minute, but during that silence everyone frozen as if the beat of the drums controlled their bodies. The tempo returned to the drums accelerating quickly making the dancers quicken their step. It looked as if they choreographed every movement. Next people with gourds filled with seeds begin to play with others blowing into other gourds. The music of hollow’s eve had started the count down until midnight.
A man in all black came into the circle of dancers tugging behind him a woman dressed in white. The sacrifice they called her. The instruments stopped as did the dancers. They all turned and looked at her in disgust. She wasn’t really a sacrificed, but anyone one who would lay with a demon is to be sacrificed on hollow’s eve, or evil will befall everyone in the village. They watched, with no sympathy, as tears tumbled down her cheeks. She was placed in the center on top of pile of wood with her hands and feet tied down. They listen to her sobs and pleas of don’ts as the headman of the village came forth.
“To all,” he waved his hand around to everyone, “this woman has done the forbidden with a demon!” The headman turned to the woman with disgust and asked, “Do you have any regrets?”
Sobs tore from her throat. She nodded her head before crying out yes. She tried to twitch her body around to look at everyone but couldn’t. “Yes everyone I regret what I did, but I was raped. The demon came into my room at night and forced himself on me. It was not…”
“Silence liar!” A female voice shouted from the crowd. “You have told me but two nights ago the same demon came to you and you willingly went to him.”
Gasps could be heard coming from the crowd. An astound headman look the woman over and backed away from her as if she was curse. The crowd voices rose in protest. The woman’s mouth was dropped in disbelief. The crowd through insulting words at her as some screamed to set her on fire already. The man in the black stepped forward with a torch and began to lower it to the wood. The headman raised a hand to stop him. The crowd voices increased louder.
“Wait! I just want to know what you told that demon.” He spitted at the last words as to wash it away.
The woman couldn’t believe that they would believe such a lie. She looked around as much as she could at her once friends and some of her family. Tears welled up in her eyes at the sight of them glaring at her. It was hopeless they wouldn’t believe anything that she said. She was going to die this night like every other woman who has lain or been raped by a demon. She slumped against the wood and shook her head. She saw the shadow of the headman’s hand signaling for the fire to begin. She watched with sad eyes as the fire ate at the wood. Screams tore from her throat as the fire consumed every cell of her body.
The villagers watch this as if it was true entertainment. The smell of burning flesh could be smelt by all of them. The piercing screams had everyone covering their ears. The adults covered their children’s eyes when the skin began to pill from her body. They were beginning to see her bones as her last cries were heard.
Laughter could be heard coming from someone in the crowd. People parted to look at the female who was to the point of tears. She walked forward holding her sides. She went straight to the headman and kissed him. He burst into laughter too. Some people began to scream demon and point fingers at her. Some had begun to run back to their homes. She watched the villagers run to their homes before turning back to the fire. She placed her hands over her chest and felt her quickened heart rapidly beat with her ongoing laughter.
“Brother, what have you done with that poor girl?” The female demon asked.
“Only taken her body for my pleasure and destroyed her in the process,” came the headman’s reply as he got control of his laughter. He looked at his sister with anger in spreading through out his eyes. “Don’t ever mess with my plans again.” He turned back to look at the girl who just stepped off the burned alter. He walked to her only to be shoved away.
“I don’t play sacrifice every time you want to spook some villages. Rachael it is good to see you. Maybe you could teach your brother some manners about how to treat a woman.”
Before Rachael could reply there was a gasp from behind them. They look to see one of the village teenage males standing there. His brown eyes widen in a surprise to see the woman they just burned standing there. He began to back up only to be halted in step when he caught the again of the woman’s. He tried to control his body as she beckoned him to her. He fought with every being in his body to stay where he was.
“Jasmine, I think you have a challenge with this one.” The headman laughed.
Jasmine tilted her head to the side in wonder. The teen had an interested mind. He seemed to be thinking on the same wave length as them. She walked towards him, but he backed up. She huffed and crossed her arms over her chest.
‘Why do I always have to have to difficult ones?”
“I’m difficult. I just don’t like being possessed.” The teen replied to her thought.
Jasmine, headman, and Rachael stared wide eyed at the boy. They all thought at once and watched as the boy grabbed his head. They blocked their thoughts and the boy swayed before crumbling to the ground.
A squeal erupted from behind them before a blur sped passed them to kneel by the crumbled boy. The young girl with black hair, big green eyes, and pale skin engulfed the boy in a powerful hug. She looked up at the adults who had an amused look on their faces. She smiled up at them with fangs protruding from her upper lips.
“Mommy, daddy can I keep him please, please, please?” The young girl begged.
The boy laughed and lifted his head. He side glanced at the girl. He had to admit that she was pretty but that didn’t suffice that she wanted him for a pet. He quickly shook her off. He stood and back away from the gang of demons. He had to get away from them.
‘Who is he? What is he?’ Rachael let her thoughts travel to his head.
He looked at her. “Who or what I am is none of your business.” He then turned and ran.
The young girl looked lonely after him. She then turned to her parents. “Should I go after him?”
“Have you feed?” Jasmine asked.
“Yes…”
“Then don’t go after him. He will eventually come to us.” The headman looked at the moon. “After all even a half-demon cannot live long without exposure to us. Next Hollow’s Eve he will be ours.” With that he opened the portal to another dimension. “Time to go home.”
He stepped into the portal followed by his wife, daughter and sister.
A man in all black came into the circle of dancers tugging behind him a woman dressed in white. The sacrifice they called her. The instruments stopped as did the dancers. They all turned and looked at her in disgust. She wasn’t really a sacrificed, but anyone one who would lay with a demon is to be sacrificed on hollow’s eve, or evil will befall everyone in the village. They watched, with no sympathy, as tears tumbled down her cheeks. She was placed in the center on top of pile of wood with her hands and feet tied down. They listen to her sobs and pleas of don’ts as the headman of the village came forth.
“To all,” he waved his hand around to everyone, “this woman has done the forbidden with a demon!” The headman turned to the woman with disgust and asked, “Do you have any regrets?”
Sobs tore from her throat. She nodded her head before crying out yes. She tried to twitch her body around to look at everyone but couldn’t. “Yes everyone I regret what I did, but I was raped. The demon came into my room at night and forced himself on me. It was not…”
“Silence liar!” A female voice shouted from the crowd. “You have told me but two nights ago the same demon came to you and you willingly went to him.”
Gasps could be heard coming from the crowd. An astound headman look the woman over and backed away from her as if she was curse. The crowd voices rose in protest. The woman’s mouth was dropped in disbelief. The crowd through insulting words at her as some screamed to set her on fire already. The man in the black stepped forward with a torch and began to lower it to the wood. The headman raised a hand to stop him. The crowd voices increased louder.
“Wait! I just want to know what you told that demon.” He spitted at the last words as to wash it away.
The woman couldn’t believe that they would believe such a lie. She looked around as much as she could at her once friends and some of her family. Tears welled up in her eyes at the sight of them glaring at her. It was hopeless they wouldn’t believe anything that she said. She was going to die this night like every other woman who has lain or been raped by a demon. She slumped against the wood and shook her head. She saw the shadow of the headman’s hand signaling for the fire to begin. She watched with sad eyes as the fire ate at the wood. Screams tore from her throat as the fire consumed every cell of her body.
The villagers watch this as if it was true entertainment. The smell of burning flesh could be smelt by all of them. The piercing screams had everyone covering their ears. The adults covered their children’s eyes when the skin began to pill from her body. They were beginning to see her bones as her last cries were heard.
Laughter could be heard coming from someone in the crowd. People parted to look at the female who was to the point of tears. She walked forward holding her sides. She went straight to the headman and kissed him. He burst into laughter too. Some people began to scream demon and point fingers at her. Some had begun to run back to their homes. She watched the villagers run to their homes before turning back to the fire. She placed her hands over her chest and felt her quickened heart rapidly beat with her ongoing laughter.
“Brother, what have you done with that poor girl?” The female demon asked.
“Only taken her body for my pleasure and destroyed her in the process,” came the headman’s reply as he got control of his laughter. He looked at his sister with anger in spreading through out his eyes. “Don’t ever mess with my plans again.” He turned back to look at the girl who just stepped off the burned alter. He walked to her only to be shoved away.
“I don’t play sacrifice every time you want to spook some villages. Rachael it is good to see you. Maybe you could teach your brother some manners about how to treat a woman.”
Before Rachael could reply there was a gasp from behind them. They look to see one of the village teenage males standing there. His brown eyes widen in a surprise to see the woman they just burned standing there. He began to back up only to be halted in step when he caught the again of the woman’s. He tried to control his body as she beckoned him to her. He fought with every being in his body to stay where he was.
“Jasmine, I think you have a challenge with this one.” The headman laughed.
Jasmine tilted her head to the side in wonder. The teen had an interested mind. He seemed to be thinking on the same wave length as them. She walked towards him, but he backed up. She huffed and crossed her arms over her chest.
‘Why do I always have to have to difficult ones?”
“I’m difficult. I just don’t like being possessed.” The teen replied to her thought.
Jasmine, headman, and Rachael stared wide eyed at the boy. They all thought at once and watched as the boy grabbed his head. They blocked their thoughts and the boy swayed before crumbling to the ground.
A squeal erupted from behind them before a blur sped passed them to kneel by the crumbled boy. The young girl with black hair, big green eyes, and pale skin engulfed the boy in a powerful hug. She looked up at the adults who had an amused look on their faces. She smiled up at them with fangs protruding from her upper lips.
“Mommy, daddy can I keep him please, please, please?” The young girl begged.
The boy laughed and lifted his head. He side glanced at the girl. He had to admit that she was pretty but that didn’t suffice that she wanted him for a pet. He quickly shook her off. He stood and back away from the gang of demons. He had to get away from them.
‘Who is he? What is he?’ Rachael let her thoughts travel to his head.
He looked at her. “Who or what I am is none of your business.” He then turned and ran.
The young girl looked lonely after him. She then turned to her parents. “Should I go after him?”
“Have you feed?” Jasmine asked.
“Yes…”
“Then don’t go after him. He will eventually come to us.” The headman looked at the moon. “After all even a half-demon cannot live long without exposure to us. Next Hollow’s Eve he will be ours.” With that he opened the portal to another dimension. “Time to go home.”
He stepped into the portal followed by his wife, daughter and sister.
Shadow
You follow me
breaking into my
soul giving me
a friend and
maybe a foe.
My shadow of
the long long
time never
leaving and
always gone
You leave me
wonder wandering
around looking
search mixing
those feelsings
remix even those.
My Shadow only
casting in the light
sometimes giving
me creeps.
"Lights out!"
Where you go?
breaking into my
soul giving me
a friend and
maybe a foe.
My shadow of
the long long
time never
leaving and
always gone
You leave me
wonder wandering
around looking
search mixing
those feelsings
remix even those.
My Shadow only
casting in the light
sometimes giving
me creeps.
"Lights out!"
Where you go?
29 October 2008
The Color of the World
A dreary little light
Something I can't see with sight
A moment where nothing seems like everything
A place where the world truly believes
Something that might be blue or black
Maybe it is white and red
Or just the color of the world
A memory of just dream
The splendid delight of just knowing
That pink and yellow hues
Maybe the kind that remains in a nice purple shadow
That resembles the color,
oh wonderful color of the world
I sadness that just happened
A essence of death
Cloudy, thunderous nightmare
That painful greyness
The darkness no one sees
The silver only there
That blandness that no one wants to experience
The angst of the anti-light, with the green envy,
And none gold lining in the sky
That nasty color, somewhat ugly world.
Something I can't see with sight
A moment where nothing seems like everything
A place where the world truly believes
Something that might be blue or black
Maybe it is white and red
Or just the color of the world
A memory of just dream
The splendid delight of just knowing
That pink and yellow hues
Maybe the kind that remains in a nice purple shadow
That resembles the color,
oh wonderful color of the world
I sadness that just happened
A essence of death
Cloudy, thunderous nightmare
That painful greyness
The darkness no one sees
The silver only there
That blandness that no one wants to experience
The angst of the anti-light, with the green envy,
And none gold lining in the sky
That nasty color, somewhat ugly world.
09 January 2008
Alphabeta
A traveler to the star-splattered sky
Breaking backs along the way
Careful not to trip the alarm
Digging deeper in the well
Every step closer makes the road longer
Fountain stopped flowing
Gaining by losing
Hungry on a full stomach
Ivory keys on a self-playing piano
Jump forth to give an answer: another question
Killing the cat over and over
Laughing at the insanity crowded around
Manic to reach the destination
Never closer than when started
Open fields close
Pacing the university halls
Questions plague and pressure
Running from the build-up
Sky’s limit is a drop of rain in the ocean
Truth will elude
Universe hides it
Varying its wavelengths
Winter’s reflection shimmers
X’s value
Yonder lies the intellectual’s downfall
Z, the end, unattainable.
-Chris Stenzel
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